When I have talked about or seen blogs, my most common thought was “I will never have a blog”. And I believed it too. It wasn’t really because I thought it would exposed me too much or because I would focus too much on the next post and stop living in the moment. The biggest reason was because I was afraid. I was afraid my life wouldn’t be enough. I was afraid that others would judge what I would write and that they simply wouldn’t like it. I am surrounded by wonderful people who are incredibly talented at writing, some even made a career out of it. How could I compete with that? What can I say that has not already been said? I also put a lot of pressure on myself, because if I were to blog then it had be perfect. I didn’t want any cracks to show. And I knew I couldn’t live up to it so why even try.
If I’m going to be completely honest, I’ve never really been a deep thinker anyways. I like to live in the present and to not think too much about the past and the future. But lately something has changed. I still like the present but I’ve started to think so much that I don’t know what to do about it. I’ve felt a need to write and organize my thoughts to the extent that my fingers are burning. What happened? Maybe I just grew up haha. Or I understand life better, or maybe I understand life less the more I learn. Anyway, I am here writing a blog that I was never supposed to have. And it feels so good. Because it doesn’t matter if people don’t like what I write. I’m doing this for myself. And I don’t have to worry that everything has already been said because it hasn’t. My voice has not been heard. And if no one listens to it, it’s ok because this is my way of sending out my voice in the universe. And this blog will have a bunch of cracks, believe me! And that’s also ok. And I will not write about perfect things or about a perfect life because it does not exist.
So, now this journey begins and I am so excited to share my little life with you and maybe an understanding for each other can grow from sharing experiences and thoughts. So hold on tight because now I will write away in my blog!
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